The fear of spoiling the painting

In my post on why I stopped my consciousness research I mentioned many times the role of fear in the decision-making process. In my latest series of 4 paintings I hit such a moment.

Update: here is the final series called Street life 1

The stage is ready

I got the background of the four paintings ready, I call it my stage. The surfaces are so fine and it was so much fun to work these that I got afraid to add my characters and make a mistake. Every little correction, even with the same paint, you see on this canvas.

So here I was, a bit uncertain on how to proceed. Now I can make up a nice story of how I went into a meditative state and my angels or whatever told me what to do. But this is not how I solve things nor how I feel about how it all works. What I did instead was, I begun to think about alternatives. Enter my tool called “what if”.

What if I would prefab the characters and glue them later onto the stage? What if I sew them onto the stage. This would link the character in another way to the stage (environment) and might be an interesting part of the narrative. What if I make paper dolls out of thick cardboard. This gives me a third dimension. What if these legs can move but the upper body part not. This would support even more the narrative.

In my minds eye I could visualize those results and every single one of them has a good point to make. Especially the paper doll with moving parts is exciting. This allows me to create a painting where the recipient can fool around with the position of the legs and create a story different of mine.

Digital mock-up of character with movable legs

Thus, instead of getting stuck with me spoiling the pristine canvas I explored alternatives. The simple question “what if” resulted in various ideas I love to explore later. No time was lost, no frustration and only more ideas to try.